Winter sets up

February 28, 2005

Minus 9 degrees this morning! This is the coldest I have ever experienced, and apparently other countries and places get even colder than this – hard to imagine. It snowed quite heavily yesterday and the temperature didn’t rise much over minus 3. The snow stopped around lunchtime and was beautifully sunny for the remainder of the day, I had forgotten how good it feels to have sunshine. Stuart got the boys up and breakfasted this morning then took them to Bal-loric for an outing for the morning. His instructions to me were clear, to climb back into bed and have some more sleep. The last time he took the boys out, I got up and spent three hours cleaning and was exhausted when he got home with two tired and grumpy lads. Won’t make that mistake again.

Thankfully, the boys were better behaved with Stuart than last time and he enjoyed the experience.

Saturday morning we took the boys over to the Alexandrium crèche facility. Our new Saturday plan is for us to have some quality time together while taking advantage of the fantastic facility. It is not ideal, leaving them at this type of place but we don’t have any other way of going around this and we need to concentrate on us a bit more now. Having the boys has been quite an assault on our relationship and I don’t want it to destroy us. I believe if we are strong, the boys will be too. Unfortunately, all the stresses and strains of the last three years as well as this move have really taken its toll on our relationship and we now need regular time together away from the boys and this is the only way we can achieve it at the moment. Hopefully they wont suffer too many abandonment issues with what we are doing.

Benjamin really didn’t want me to go yesterday, “mummy leave later, mummy stay play”, broke my heart and made it extremely hard for me to leave. We cut our intended time by half because I didn’t want to leave them there if they are not happy. Benjamin seems more comfortable at staying at home lately.